Oh Abbs,
How can it be 4 years since I lost you? I think about you every day and the memories of your life -and death- are forever engrained in my mind. There are nights (like tonight) where I lie awake unable to sleep, just thinking about you.
I think about your short time on earth. About how beautiful and strong you were. About the connection we had that was so deep no words can describe it.
I think about who you would be and what our lives would look like.
I imagine you in the role as big sister and just smile from ear to ear. Harry loves looking at your pictures; he sees any baby in a picture and assumes it's you.
I like to think you're with me in spirit. When I'm having a hard time, I wonder if you're watching. All I ever wanted was to be a mom, and I'm so very thankful I was yours. You shaped my outlook on motherhood and losing you changed my perspective on life.
I hate today, 3/28. But I love that I was able to know you, if only for a short time.
I miss you every day and just pray you're watching over us.
I love you baby girl.
Love, mama
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