I'm alive~

I'm at a loss for words, yet I have so much to say. This morning is an awakening one~ I opened my window to enjoy the sound of rain falling, and was mesmerized. I couldn't move; I had to sit and just listen.. I got lost in the smell of fresh air and the sweet sound of raindrops dancing on the ground.. It woke me up, made me feel alive. I reconnected with nature, which in turn allowed my spirit to reappear. My spirit yearns to love and be loved, but that's been masked by my bitter thoughts and hurtful words. No longer will I treat people poorly because I'm experiencing a 'bad day;' it's not fair to them. I am so truly blessed to have people stand by me even when I don't deserve them. I promise to treat EVERYONE better, including myself. I'm in love with today~ I love my family and I thank God for all of them <3 I pray for happiness and love <3 And I just want to apologize again to those who have been getting the worst of me. I love you all~

~peace.love.mak~

you look like gold to me~

   Here I am, writing my once a month entry (; I know I always say I'll be a better blogger, read more, I'll eat better, start working out, etc. but it never seems to last. That's because I have no sense of commitment whatsoever |: But that's all going to change. This is the prime of my life, the best time to make necessary changes.. I want things to be different..
   Ashley and I had a good conversation yesterday. We talked about how our lives are what we make them, and although we can't control everything, we're not doing anything to change what we can control. One thing for me is how I treat my body. The poor thing is so neglected! Today is day 2 of a 3 day cleanse that Ashley and I are doing together,, it sucks! But we're trying to rid our bodies of everything that isn't pure. I think it's a great experience for the soul and mind alike~
   Something I can't control (and it kills me) is how much I don't see people. I try to spend all my free time with family [and my boyfriend] but the latter doesn't happen too often. I've been trying really hard to focus more on myself than on our relationship, because I feel like maybe I care too much.
   School is going great so far. I need to keep up with my work, and this quarter will be a breeze! It really is hard to balance school, work, family, a relationship, and working on myself. Welcome to adulthood, eh? ha!
 *God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.* <3

~peace.love.mak~