Joshua,
Happy birthday sweet boy! I cannot believe it's already been 3 years since we said good-bye. On the same token, so much has happened in the last 3 years, it feels like that was a lifetime ago.
I can tell your story without batting an eye or shedding a tear now. Some would say that's from growing stronger or moving forward, but honestly I allowed myself to become numb to the pain of your loss. For that I am sorry.
When I stop to actually remember what it was like to lose you, my heart aches. You were my firstborn, my first son! Now that I have your brother, I miss you even more. I wonder if you'd be helping him learn to crawl, showing him how to kick a ball, etc. I bet you'd be an awesome big brother (:
I look forward to the day I get to smother you in all my hugs and kisses. I miss you every day baby boy ~ Thank you for taking care of your sister for us.
Happy birthday, little man!
I love you more than you'll ever know.
Love,
Mommy
