Life is so inspiring

I know I'm terrible at blogging, but I've been so busy lately. Work is hectic, since Christmas is just around the corner,, but I'm not complaining. I'm grateful to have a job (: It's crazy, now that I'm on break I've had a lot of time to do nothing but think.. and boy have I thought a lot! Sooo many things hit me at once, and it was all like someone shook me. I'm awake now, and so much happier. I'm back on my path to spirituality, and to finding myself. Makayla got lost somewhere, and now it's my job to find her; I've lost touch with myself, but I'm reconnecting. It feels good to have such ambitions again (: I was reading this book I have called 'Walking on the wind; the Cherokee guide to harmony and balance,' and there was an exercise I found so interesting I had to share. The instructions were to complete the sentence 'I am ___' 12 times on a blank sheet of paper. At first it was hard for me to find 12 adjectives about myself, but I did it. And here's what I said:
I am human.
I am sensitive.
I am confused.
I am lost.
I am considerate.
I am (usually) selfless.
I am guilty.
I am capable.
I am big-hearted.
I am responsible.
I am grateful.
I am loved.
This exercise was good for me, because I don't think about myself too often, unless it's in a negative manner. I'm waking up and loving myself again. It's wonderful! I forgot one adjective: I am BLESSED! Thank you God for everything <3
~peace.love.mak~

happy thanksgiving!

It's been exactly 2 months since my last blog,, oops! Life sure is looking up [: Today's Thanksgiving, so I shall talk about the things I'm thankful for. First off, I'm so very grateful for life itself. I am sooo lucky to wake up every morning, even though I take the breath of life for granted too often. Of course I'm thankful for my wonderful family. Without them, I wouldn't be where I am. I watch Dyllan grow with each passing day, and sometimes I just look at him with admiration. Oh and Adalyn, how precious is she! Both of my parents are owed a big thanks, just for being there when I need them. I love you guys <3 I couldn't ask for a better best friend <3 And my boyfriend, oh how much I appreciate you putting up with my craziness! God has truly blessed me, so thank you <3 <3 Have a wonderful thanksgiving!
~peace.love.mak~

well hmph..

I had a revelation last night, and it made me pretty sad. I realized that I'm a senior in high school (duh) and it's my last year to really enjoy being a 'kid.' But instead of enjoying my youth, I'm trying soooo hard to be an adult; mainly because I've always had to be grown up. It breaks my heart to think how much of my time could have been better enjoyed /: I feel like I wasted my adolescence, and now that I'm almost 18 I feel as if I'm too old to start acting like a teenager. Ugh! I understand that the only way to not regret my entire youth is to start enjoying life the way most 17 year olds do,, not most 30 year olds. Anyhoo, that's all. Today's a big day, so I better get up and get ready.
~peace.love.mak~

let it rain ~

Oh my goodness, so many things have happened in the month and a half since I last wrote!
Well, time just flies. My baby brother started Kindergarten, ohhhh boy he's growing up <3

 Adalyn is crawling, sitting up all by herself, and can stand (with support of course),, yayyyy!

 I start school in less than a week, and I'm actually excited. I think that's a first..haha I'm going to my first homecoming next weekend, and the closer it gets the more I'm looking forward to it. I'm just stressing because I don't have a dress or anything yet..yikes.. I am still without a job, but not for long! I kinda started slacking, and now I'm picking up the slack. I want to have a job before this month is over..soooo I have 16 days to get one. *time crunch* Oooh and my birthday is 2 months from today,, the big 18 (; I'm kind of stoked.. Anyhoo, life is a-mazing! I forget that sometimes, but when I snap out of my 'taking everything for granted' trance, I love everyone and everything even more. I am truly BLESSED!!
My dad, brother, and grandparents were over a couple weeks ago and we had a blast!

they're such an inspiration~

 Last weekend my aunt and uncle took my love and I to pike place,, It's sooo beautiful down there~

<3 <3

[:

That's all [:

~peace.love.mak~

blessed am i ♥

well, I had an amazing weekend! There were tons of people there,, it was soooo much fun! I got a nice tan, too (; A few Flatters couldn't make it, and they were truly missed! <3<3 I'm really glad I got to know my dad and his family again; I don't think my life would be as full if I hadn't. Thank you, God, for giving me the courage to do so <3 Today was good. I got to spend a good portion of the day with my love <3 Oh, and I saw Shelby, Adalyn, and Ryan for a couple hours; that was nice (: The weather was perfect! It was warm and sunny,, ahhh [: My mom and I got to enjoy a nice dinner at Olive Garden, yummm! I did a little online job hunting, and found a good-sounding position; so I replied.. hopefully I'll hear back about it *fingers crossed*. Tomorrow I'm gunna hit up both of the malls for applications..hope I get something soon! Being broke suuucks! Uhh, other than that life is wonderful~ I'm so very thankful for my family and friends. Love you all! <3
~peace.love.mak~

~ahh~

So I lied about being a better blogger, sorry /: My life continues to look up and it keeps amazing me! I have so many things to write about, I'm not even sure where to begin.. well, my tiwahe is wonderful,, as always <3 I don't know where I'd be without them.. I'm sad that I don't see Shelby and Adalyn as much, but life happens..

she's getting so big!!

we're like peas & carrots <3

Dyllan is the love of my life <3 <3 He's one of the best things that has ever happened to me, and sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have him.

I haven't been painting very much lately,, but I've been distracted (; I've managed to land myself an awesome guy,, how lucky am I~

Oh! I cut my dreads off, and I miss them dearly! Now my hair is super short, but it looks good..I think in a few years I'll rock the dreads again <3

I'm sososo excited because our family reunion is less than a week away! I'll get to see people I haven't seen in over a year and a half, and some that I've never met. I cannot wait, ahhh!! Oh yeah, I started this post to write about the changes I want to make. I know I've written about doing this and that, but have only followed through temporarily. Wellll, I want this to be different.. I've decided to beome a total health nut. I feel like if I don't go extreme with my health, then I'll never be ideally healthy. So, starting tomorrow, I will be a nut [: Good night and God bless <3 <3 <3
~peace.love.mak~

I'm glad God knows what He's doing.

Honestly, I'm not sure what I'd do if things always worked out the way I thought they should. This week has been crazy, with school finals and just some unnecessary drama. Thankfully, I'm setting that all aside. I've been thinking about how unhealthy I am, and it's getting to me. I have no energy, I'm always tired, etc. So, tonight Ashley and I decided a few things: 1-we're going to live in the gym, aka go every day (or at least try to) for the entire summer; 2-boycott fast food restaurants; 3-stop drinking mochas (and caffeine in general) and replace it with water, tea, and juice; and 4-eat the way we should! I'm so very excited to be healthy again. There's no reason to treat my body the way I have been; I deserve better than this. I also hope that by taking care of myself, I'll get back on path towards stronger spirituality. I've been getting side-tracked lately, and that makes me sad. Anyhoo, life is very good right now and I need to remember that I'm very blessed. Thank you, Jah!
~peace.love.mak~

this curious thing we call life~

Wow. I realize I haven't blogged in, uhh eons? That's due in part to my laziness, but I've also been kind of busy. A lot's happened in the last month, too. Many good things, and a few less than good. I had a little breakdown the other night, where my best friend and I talked about all the things that are stressing us out; then we cried. I think that was good, because I needed to cry. And now I'm totally fine. I'm more than fine; that night made me realize that I have nothing to cry about. My life is AWESOME~ and I just lost sight of that. I just wanted to write and let everyone know how thankful I am. [: God, thanks for always loving me <3 That's it for now.. I'll try to be better about this whole blogging business (;


Pike Place <3



nuff said

hahaha [:

I'm cool (;

~peace.love.mak~

~Life~

Ohh how interesting life is. How absolutely inspiring people can be..and how oblivious I am sometimes.
Over this last week, I've come to a few realizations about myself. The first one is that I've been acting way crazy..Not necessarily crazy, but I just haven't been walking my spiritual path. I've been treating loved ones not-so-great, too. Enough of that pish posh, though, because now I'm getting back on track. I'm not sure what got into me, but it's leaving. Secondly, I don't appreciate life like I should. Obviously I am super grateful to be alive, and I am aware of my wonderful life..Buuuut, lately I've been taking too many things for granted. That also ends now. I guess the point of this is to confess my wrong-doings, and and hopefully gain encouragement to continue a spiritual life. Oh, and I'd like to thank God for life; Earth for the elements; and my family for loving me no matter what. I am thankful.<3
~peace.love.mak~

hmm.

Well, it's been quite some time since I've blogged (my sincere apologies!).. A lot has been happening, and it's all very exciting, I wish I could share. But there's just so much! Let's see, I've been spending every spare moment of my time with Ashley; she and I are really getting closer than we already were. It's as if we're dating, ha! I miss my sister ): I never ever see her anymore, and it totally sucks. Today was my mom's birthday, and we went out to dinner; I got to see my aunt Jen. Gahhh I miss her! Everyone around me is sick, and I feel as though it's trying to take over my body too..I just hope I don't get hit hard! This quarter is 1/3 over, which may not seem like a lot, but it's better than being at the start. I need to keep up with my school work, cuz I want to be a good student.. Here are just a few snapshots of my hectic life..

Ashley's birthday party..suuuper fun



the gang <3



Another crazy, fun weekend

Ted's car..

...and Ted

Easter <3

There has been muuuch more going on, but this is just a glimpse. I love these people, and my life!
~peace.love.mak~

I am grateful

Today was wonderful in so many ways! Dyllan and I took an hour walk up to Starbucks, and that was lovely. He ejoyed the outdoors, as did I. We sat inside, sipping our coffee and cocoa for a little over an hour until Ashley picked us up. We all went to the gym for a bit, although I admit my work out wasn't the best it could've been..I suppose it's better than not going at all. My mom and I had an honest, mature discussion, and that was good. Dad and Sam are heading this way tomorrow and staying the weekend; I'm looking forward to seeing them. I am sooo relieved the weekend is almost here; this first week of school flew by. Time is moving so fast, and tons of stuff is happening. But I'm glad that everything is going the way it is..I have a wonderful life, and will write more later.
~peace.love.mak~

sisterhood~

What a beautiful creation. God was smart when He made sisters, and even smarter when He made mine. I must say my sister is probably the best I could ever ask for. Although we haven't been spending any time together lately, we still have an unbreakable bond. I miss her every day; even when I get to see her for five minutes. She is strong and beautiful, but often fails to see this. Just wanted to share my love and appreciation for you, Shelby. I love you to pieces!

~peace.love.mak~

blissful insanity

Whew, another productive day comes to a close. Thank goodness it's almost my bed time. Seeing as I did almost nothing yesterday, I sure made up for it today. Most of my day was spent with Ashley, and it was wonderful. I got to see Adalyn and Ryan for a couple hours which I totally enjoyed. Ashley and I researched some volunteer opportunities, and stopped by the old folks' home. Looks like we'll be frequenting there..at least we're taking steps now instead of just talking about it. I'd like to volunteer at a food bank/soup kitchen, but the ones around here have such limited hours. When their next volunteer day comes, I hope to be there. We visited the gym for about 45+ minutes; I'm so glad I've started working out again. It feels amzing! School starts again on Monday, so I had to get books today..and boy are they expensive. Hopefully I can sell my old ones to partially compensate. I think I'll go relax and maybe read now. Just had to share my super day (: Looks like tomorrow will have just as much business. Goodnight!
~peace.love.mak~

what a weekend!

 I know this is a few days late, but I had to write about my fabulous weekend. Friday was spent relaxing and hanging out with Ashley, after hitting the gym of course. Saturday we went to the mall for a bit, and got to see an old friend; probably one of my oldest. We went back to Ashley's, tested out her hot tub, and just hung out. It was perfect! Sunday was just as lovely. My mom and I visited downtown Seattle. Our first stop was the EMP. However, I'm sad to inform that I was slightly disappointed; I thought there were more exhibits. The Hendrix exhibit was amazing! Oh and there was a 'history of the guitar' exhibit which was very informative. We later had some teriyaki before picking Dyllan up. After that, Shelby brought me Adalyn and she spent the night. Ahh so wonderful. The week started off good as well. And I'm sure the rest will continue in the same fashion. (:

EMP!

you can't see it, but we're standing in front of the space needle



the guitar he played at Woodstock

I got a Hendrix poster of him 'Live at Woodstock' and some newspapers from the actual event. [:

I love this beautiful baby! <3

~peace.love.mak~ 

what a revelation~

Talking to Ashley last night made me realize a few things. First off, she brought to my attention that by making promises about changes I'll make and not keeping them, I'm lying to myself. There's no point in agreeing to hollow vows; action must be taken. So, starting today, I will hold true to all of my words. And thanks to Ashley, I now have someone to hold me accountable, and I do the same for her. I truly do feel the emotions expressed in this blog, but I don't always speak or act that way. I have no explanation as to why, but that is about to change. My personal thoughts will now become my everyday words and actions, so expect a more genuine Mak! Thank you Ashley for bringing this revelation to me, and I'm so so so glad you're in my life. That's all for now.
~peace.love.mak~

any day now

today was amazing! and SO productive--I loved every minute! Dyllan and I took our mom to work, got ready for school, only to find out he has no class today; drove home to pick up Ashley. Then we got a starbucks and brought it to our mom at work, picked Shelby up (who conveniently lives where my mom works)..went to the gym [[had an awesome workout]]; Dyll got ice cream; then remembering we hadn't eaten, we ventured on over to the albertson's deli and got dinner. after that, we loaded the car up (now with Adalyn whom we got at the ice cream shop), and headed for home; stayed there for less than an hour, and picked our mom up from work. whew! I think that's it..see? told you it was productive (:

What a lovely day! not to mention the weather was gorgeous! then, being in western washington, it began raining ): but hey, we got the sun for hours, so I'm not complaining. I sooo look forward to relaxing tonight and beginning another glorious day tomorrow!

I just looove this picture and had to share it. so pretty!

that's all (:

~peace.love.mak~

beautiful, wonderful, amazing, happy..life

well, we're all settled into our new apartment. of course everything isn't unpacked, because we have A LOT of boxes. it does feel good to be back here though..I've spent a few days with my friend whom I haven't seen in too long. plus I'm close enough now that I just pick Adalyn up in the mornings. although I didn't used to be a morning person, she makes me happy to be up. I love the crisp air and getting to watch the sun come up. Dyllan comes with me too; he's so good about getting up at 6:45. ahh, what wonderful children (:

they make me smile huuuuge all the time [: 

Ashley  and I spent hours randomly painting yesterday.. I'm glad she loves it because that's one more thing we can do together.
I must go enjoy the sun!
~peace.love.mak~

productivity feels good

Today was reeeeally busy..but for a good reason..we're moving on Friday, and just started packing today. So we have to pack an entire house in 2 days and have it totally clean in 3..yikes..it doesn't help that I'll have Adalyn this weekend. But hey, it's all worth it in the end (: Now I'm hoping to relax and sleep well tonight.. I feel as though a cold is coming on..either that or allergies. either way, sleep is the cure-all. I'm very excited for spring break with my best friend(s)..and just being near all my friends again.

 Dyllan and I walked Seattle the other morning <3

 such a stud (:

I thought this was pretty neat

<33

I look a little strung out, but I'm not.. Love that scarf!

It's time for rest..

~peace.love.mak~

praise allah!

Man, life is goooood. My mom got the job she was hoping for, we're moving back to our hometown, things are just looking up. I'm on Spring break..The sun is starting to peek through. Everything is going wonderful! I have an amazing family and couldn't make it through without them. So, I love you all! Off to Seattle I go.
~peace.love.mak~

kiss the sky

So I realized I suck at this whole blogging business..I'm tryin to make it better though! I fail at working out every day, so the 90 days is now 95 I think? And Lent is going less than okay. I haven't been sticking to my promises /: I wish I could blame this on my finals week, but there really is no excuse. Although it has been a busy week, I've had time to read..and I've just been lazy when it comes to not eating sugar, not consuming caffeine, and remaining positive. That must change! I love taking care of dear Adalyn, but having her constantly reminds me of how much I want to wait to have one of my own. It's hard trying to tend to a baby and complete a timed test..or to sleep..I feel like a mom myself..ha! I do love and appreciate my time with her very much though. Yesterday I spent the day with my wonderfully amazing aunt. She's the most spiritual and loving woman I know, and I was blessed with her presence.I'll write more later--Addy wants to be rocked to sleep.
~peace.love.mak~

music never dies

So my mom and I did go to the memorial park (is that politically correct?) yesterday. It was much different than the first time we went..As soon as we pulled up we saw the giant monument in honor of the late Jimi Hendrix, and I asked her how could we possibly have missed this?! At least 10 people visited the same statue when we were there, and it just amazed me that this man has been dead for 40 years, and people still visit him. He was, and is still, a legend. I asked my mom if he ever imagined this..she said how could he? [[R.I.P. Jimi]] We spent some time taking pictures, reading his notes, and just admiring the beautiful creation. After that we walked around almost the whole park, just reading headstones..I was attracted to this huuuuge Chinese-palace-looking building,,found out it was dedicated to all the victims of Hurricane Katrina..the love of the donors melted my heart <3 Then we stumbled upon the section for soldiers..one stone touched me in particular,, it read "here lies a soldier known only to God." how sad..

that man whose legs you see let his dog poop in some flowers on Hendrix's plot..that was disturbing

this area of land was beautiful!

Rest in peace, beloved men and women. <3
~peace.love.mak~