let it be~

   This last week has been interesting for sure. Not too much has happened, though. I have my next doctor's appoinment in a week, and I'll know the sex then! I'm excited, but nervous as always. Today marks week 15, and there's still a bun in my oven. I'm celebrating weekly because this 40 weeks seems like an eternity! 

   Shelby and Addy moved in last night; preparing for them was fun. We had to deep clean our spare room and all of our storage closets, which proved more challenging than I anticipated. But it's done and everything is swell~ Poor Addy has been sick though, and Shelby doesn't feel good now too. I really hope I don't catch what they have |: 

   Oleg and I are working on saving money, which apparently is very hard for us, ha! We'll have to learn soon though because although pregnancy seems never ending, it goes pretty quickly! We're still looking for a new place, so wish us luck~

  We went back to church yesterday for the first time in almost a year, and it was so refreshing. I miss church and community group so so much! I really hope we continue going every week, because it's what we need and what our baby-to-be needs! I don't have much else to write about today~

  Today I pray for health above all else, and also safety, protection, and happiness~

~peace.love.mak~

blessings fall like rain~

   Well, today marks week 14 of my pregnancy, and I'm still pregnant. Woohoo! There are so many other pregnant women around me it's incredible! I haven't told everyone yet, for two reasons:

  1- I don't want to be excited and have everyone excited if something were to go wrong later. and, 

  2- I fear judgment. I know people love and support us no matter what, but there are a lot of things that could be frowned upon. 

  I think I just hate the thought of disappointing peole.. 

   Anyway, my baby's as big as a navel orange (yumm!), and my bump is more noticeable. I don't have many comfy pants (except maybe sweats and a couple pairs of yoga pants), so I think I'll have to wear dresses, leggings, and keep holding my pants together with a rubber band as long as possible! 

  Since I had spontaneous preterm labor last time, the doctors are taking preventative measures this time. I have to get weekly Progesterone injections starting at week 16, and will go in every other week for monitoring. That means A LOT of appointments; I'm worrying about

how to fit everything into my already-chaotic work schedule. But my manager is pretty understanding, so I hope my

job isn't affected too much. 

[ this is Devony; we call each other work twins, and I will miss her bunches!]

  Oleg's been looking for a new job, just so we can be more financially stable. He wants me to quit Starbucks, but I figure I should work as long as I possibly can. I hope we'll be in a good enough place so I can take a year off after our baby's born, God willing! 

  God has been wonderful to us and I thank Him every day for all of our blessings. We have so much more than we could ask for, and I pray we can shine His light into the lives of others~

today I pray for health and happiness.

~peace.love.mak~

Blessed am I~

I'm feeling very relieved today. I had a doctors appointment this morning and an ultrasound was scheduled; of course I couldn't help but be filled with anxiety and what-ifs. As soon as I saw our baby dancing around, my nerves settled. I love her so much! I finally feel okay and like maybe this pregnancy will last.. I have the option of finding out the gender in just 3 weeks! But Oleg won't be able to be with me /: He said he wants me to find out anyway; I just hate to be go alone. The plus side is I'll be having many more ultrasounds throughout this pregnancy, and he'll be able to experience some of them with me. I just want everything to go well and to hold my baby in 6 months! Oh how I hope time flies. That's all for today, I just wanted to share my joy.

~peace.love.mak~

home is where the heart is

   I'm so so happy we're in Spokane! I've missed it here so much. Our Flatter family reunion was Saturday, and I was kind of sad to see how many people didn't show up. We still had a good time though~

   Debbie is so sweet and always has her arms open to us! Shelby and Addy were already staying here, and she still let me, Oleg, and Chris sleep here. She's the best<3 I'm happy Chris got to come; I think he's enjoying himself. Also he'll be staying a few more nights than we anticipated at our house, but that's okay.

 

   Addy makes me so happy! The last couple days I've spent most of my time with her and it's been wonderful. She makes me laugh all the time, and she's just so sweet and kind-hearted<3

  Oleg had to leave yesterday to go back home, since he works today. That was the first night we've spent apart since we've lived together (9 months). I don't understand how people do it all the time; maybe it gets easier, but I think we're just too attached to each other. I mostly feel sad for him because he's home alone whereas I have all these people around me. It will be a long 3 days /: (go ahead and mock me if you will!) 

   Baby update: I'm pretty sure I felt her squirming around this morning. I know they say it's impossible to feel your baby move at only 12 weeks, but I looked into it; many women say they felt it as early as 10 or 11 weeks. They say once you've felt it with your first baby, you'll notice it sooner with your following pregnancies. I pray all is well and that we get to keep this one. I know it's impossible to know the gender right now, but we're about 90% she's a girl. I can hardly wait!! I have 2 more appointments next week, so we'll see how she's doing. I'm very thankful these days~

  I pray for health and happiness today.

~peace.love.mak~