Finally home~

  I am so so so happy we're finally home! After we left, we were home for 3 nights before having to go back /: Abigail had been throwing up just way too much and losing weight. They couldn't really come up with any answers but we spent 4 days there before being discharged (again).

  Abigail is doing pretty good. She's on and off with her weight; some days she gains and some days she loses. This could partially be my fault. Some times I give her straight breastmilk instead of the fortified stuff. (Docs say cardiac babies need extra calories, and breastmilk just isn't enough). But her tummy seems happier without the formula, so I've started giving her 2 feeds with formula, 1 without. We'll see if that's enough for her to gain (;

  She still has her feeding tube, which is a blessing and a curse. It's nice because we can give her yucky meds without her having to taste them, but also extremely inconvenient. We have to make sure it's in the right place, hope she doesn't rip it out, try not to catch it on anything. We also have to carry the feeding pump and bag around with us, making sure it's fully charged at all times. Plus, it keeps her esophagus constantly open, so her reflux is amplified.

  I must admit, it's somewhat frustrating having to teach my 2 month old how to eat. For babies, eating is so primitive; buit not when you don't allow them to try until they're 6 weeks old. She's a rock star, though, getting the hang of it pretty well. I'm only allowed to let her eat for 5-10 minutes at a time, so she doesn't wear herself out. It feels like we took a huge step backwards because we stopped working on oral feeds when we went back to the hospital, so now we're back at square one.

   Enough of the complaints, though. We're so blessed to have such a beautiful little girl. She's a great baby, and brings immense joy to our lives. It's a miracle that she's alive, and home with us! We love taking her places and showing her off. I just love her, and thank God for her every day<3

  I've started going back to the gym, and it feels great. Shelby wants me to run a 5k with her in May, and I think I will. I've already lost all my pregnancy weight plus 2 pounds. It's amazing because I had been eating so poorly in the hospital. I think being home I burn a million times more calories, though. It's pretty awesome being a mommy (:

  I better go be productive while I have the opportunity!